3/16/07

For thought (not just for the ladies)

Via Kristina's blog...I found this article on something termed "gray rape," more or less referring to impaired judgment in social/sexual situations and including (but apparently broader than) the concept of acquaintance rape.

Definitely thought-provoking.

In therapy recently, I was told that I don't share my feelings easily. I've had this confirmed by a personal friend or two.

I'm never really sure what I share, whether they be feelings, thoughts, emotions or behaviours.

I will say, though, something like this has happened to me. Perhaps, in different ways, even more than once.

I'm not sure I feel like discussing it here, though. I did ramble on about it in therapy a bit, recently, which is why I'm bringing it up; with my curious lack of affect that I take to be logic/successful processing of all things like this. Until they explode in some other direction.

I don't like affecting other people with my "feelings," but I don't mind listening to others.

Call me whacky. Or closed-off, or lacking in trust. That's just me, for now.

1 comment:

Lisa P said...

I'll share this with you for the first time ever. My first sexual experience was what you might call a "grey rape". I was 16, he was 22. I wasn't chemically impaired in any way, but I was young and emotionally impaired. I said no, but that didn't matter. My response was to fabricate a relationship with this asshole so that I wouldn't percieve myself as a whore.

Wow. That is the first time I have ever revealed that. Thank you.